Wednesday, January 23, 2008

A "Hummel" in overalls...

cApril 28th

Today, we spoke with a Cardiologist concerning Stephen's heart condition. He said, that once surgery is performed it would require additional surgeries. He would like to try and slowly wean Stephen off the oxygen he is receiving and see if he can thrive on his own....with a heavy heart these words swirled around in my head...

Surgeries?...weaned off oxygen? will he do?"

My heart ached as I thought upon his course of life.

"Will he have quality playtime with his brothers and sisters?"

Psalm 147:3 He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.

Weeks passed and Stephen seemed to do well with the minimal help of oxygen. He was holding his own!

On a visit a few weeks later, my husband and I were shocked at the sight of our son. He had changed dramatically; the lack of oxygen he still suffered was causing fluid retention. Yet he looked so precious to a pudgy little boy. As I gazed upon his precious face, I envisioned a little "Hummel" figurine before my eyes. My grandmother had a collection of these German made figurines and I always admired them. Their round faces with rosy cheeks and sweet smiles. Here was one, in person.

The hospital provided clothing for Stephen. I don't know why, perhaps for sanitary reasons. I appreciated so much the "normal" clothing provided instead of a generic hospital gown. This day, Stephen was dressed in cute overalls.

Each visit my heart was warmed with his precious life. I spoke with the LORD in the quiet moments of my visits alone with Stephen and pondered my Bible readings.

But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said to you. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. St. John chpt. 14:26-27


Pam--in Jerusalem said...

What a sweet, precious memory of your son! Do you now have a little Hummel figurine to remind you of him?

HOPE said...

No, I do not but now that I write this, I'm wondering why I never thought to purchase one for myself! Guess I'll be looking around now!

Anonymous said...

This story brought up mixed feelings for me. Though it sounds like a frightening situation it looks like you handled it with a lot of peace of mind. I guess that this is where the lord goes into the picture. This all sounds very amazing to me… the faith you have in God is really admirable as I see it, and I can only hope to have this kind of faith too someday.


HOPE said...

Thank you for visiting again Din..
The faith which is evident here Din, definetly comes to those who have trusted him first as their Saviour. Romans 10 verse 17 says Faith cometh by hearing and hearing by the word of God. It comes some by time and experience in walking with the LORD (as this entire story did for me..even now), some by desire in reading God's Word whereby comes some understanding. As I said the Bible says in Psalm 119 vers 130 The entrance of thy words giveth light, it giveth understanding unto the simple. You must BELEIVE WHO God is and in simple child like faith...BELEIVE HIM!
As you said Trust is hard...did you read my beginning post on Trust. Please do.
There is a song that says..My faith has found a resting place...
Yes, indeed it is in the Faith of the LORD JESUS.

This is a true account Din. I am no Spiritual Giant. But, I came to realize in my walk with the LORD. HE is GOD...and his ways are perfect, his purposes perfect, and he knows the end. I rest in this and his great love for me. I still struggle from time to time..and remind myself of this very story. It renews the wonderful work he did at this time in my life. There is no denying...that I have a wonderous GOD of mercy, hope and grace.