Monday, February 18, 2008


Another day inserting the feeding tube. This day was the most trying of all.I inserted the feeding tube and it came out his mouth. I was so discouraged. This made me all the more fearful...of myself!

The nurses reassured me that I will do fine, just a minor setback..they have them too.

"Dear God, please give me strength!"

Stephen is scheduled to come home in 3 days...

My husband had taken time off of work so we could all be home and adjust. The children were so anxious to have their other little brother home. My eldest daughter, just 6 years old, was so helpful with little Charlie. She loved to hold him.

They too have visited the hospital and understood Stephen's condition.

"Stephen won't be able to crawl around like Charlie and bounce on your knees; he will need special care at home just like at the hospital."

We couldn't wait until we could all sit around as a family and laugh together, read stories and sing. Our family time is so precious to us. They are such sweet children!I am so thankful for their tender hearts, kind and loving.

Psalm 127:3 Lo, children are an heritage of the LORD: and the fruit of the womb is his reward.

We prepared the "baby room" with two little cribs and all the necessary items needed for Stephen's special care..boxes full.

I must continue to draw strength from the LORD and not succumb to my own fears. The battles of this flesh can be so wearisome. Truly mankind, needs GOD. Truly in the depths of one's soul...they know...they know without him...there is not understanding nor peace.

Each day I see the LORD, a little more closely...a little less of self and more of HIM.

When I remember thee upon my bed, and meditate on thee in the night watches.Because thou hast been my help, therefore in the shadow of thy wings will I rejoice.My soul followeth hard after thee: thy right hand upholdeth me.Psalm 63:5-8


Pam--in Jerusalem said...

I'm so glad that your children were a blessing to you at this time. Many lost people would have viewed them as a burden at such a trying time.

HOPE said...

You are so right Pam...
my children have always been one of the GREATEST JOYS of my life...I have always counted it an honor to be a MOTHER...and now a Grandmother...and also YOUR adopted Mother in the LORD!

It is a wonderful "ministry" and so important for Christian women to view it with a sober, sincere and honored priviledge.